Thursday, February 05, 2009

almost spring.

I stumbled upon this beautiful piece of video clip on Vimeo today. Creative energy has been low for the past a couple months, I don't seem to take as many photos as I used to, I don't seem to create as much as I used to.

The spring is almost here again. March used to be my favorite month of a year, death turns into life, cold turns into warmth, and darkness fades away into the light. It will be the forth spring since Sean has left us for the better place. Even the intolerable pain is turning into something bearable as time goes by. Life goes on, we seem to find the strength in us somehow. I'm still here and I'm still trying to be an optimist.

In this spring, I want to more focus on finding what I want for life, what to do to make it happen. After all, the most important thing is trying, trying the best I can, that way I will get to enjoy the journey and hopefully to find the beauty of life.

So the spring begins.

A Walk Around Seattle in the Snow from Luke Humphrey on Vimeo.

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

zurich & vancouver

zurich, switzerland

My friend Peter who lives in Zürich sent me a link to this article of "Top 5 quality of living ranking for cities worldwide" today and here's the list from the article:


Top 5 cities - Overall
1. Zurich, Switzerland (1st)
2. Vienna, Austria (tied for 2nd)
2. Geneva, Switzerland (tied for 2nd )
4. Vancouver, Canada (4th)
5. Auckland, New Zealand (5th)

European cities dominate the rankings of locations with the best quality of living, according to Mercer’s 2008 Quality of Living survey. Zurich retains its 2007 title as the highest ranked city, followed jointly by Vienna (2), Geneva (2), then Vancouver (4) and Auckland (5).


The rankings are based on a point scoring index, which sees Zurich scoring 108, while Baghdad scores 13.5. Cities are ranked against New York as the base city which has an index score of 100.


I've been to Zurich quite a few times and lived in Vancouver for a while and I liked both cities a lot. I guess the difference is between the lake and the ocean or the difference between Europe or North America. If I had to choose one out of the two cities? It would be a really tough question as I actually miss the both cities very much.

It's already June, I think it's time to plan on my next vacation... and the question is where to go.

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Thursday, May 29, 2008

happy birthday.

happy birthday.

Dear Sean,

It's your birthday here on earth today and we had such a beautiful day in Seoul. The rain last night cleared up, the sun was out, and the sky was actually blue.

Disappointingly, I didn't get to do anything special for your birthday today. Thought of going to the river and empty a couple bottles of beer for you, then again, I had teaching tonight and couldn't find the time. On the way home, I was listening to our music, thought of our time together, and your last birthday we spent together. I can't believe four years has passed already.

Thinking of you on your birthday and wanted to let you know once again that I'm so grateful that I had you in my life and that I am a different person now through the time I spent with you. You helped me to find who I am and what love is.

Hope that you had some good pint of Guinness and good Indian food with some good friends and monkeys. I miss you so much. Happy birthday, sweetheart.



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Thursday, May 15, 2008

waking up on the indian ocean

Work is going and it actually is going better than most of my previous projects. Though it doesn’t excite me. I was talking with my friend over Skype, telling her that I need some fun. Then I started describing the kind of fun I want such as painting-the-ocean kindda fun, button-making fun, and waking-up-on-the-Indian-Ocean fun etc.

Then I started Flickr-searching with “Indian Ocean”. I found this beautiful sunset photo of the Indian Ocean. I found quite a few actually but this is my favorite so far.

I know I like to day-dream and, in fact, I do it really well in a creative way. I know it’s only a day-dream for now but I really wanna be there someday, watch the sunset and wake up with the sunrise.

Okay, it’s time to get back to work.

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

three years.

what's left behind.

It's Sean's three years' anniversary today. For the past a couple of days, my mind has been lingering around today of three years ago. So, grieving was allowed...

Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion.

- And Death Shall Have No Dominion by Dylan Thomas

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Friday, July 06, 2007



I've been busy lately. Busy with work and lazy with life... that's probably more accurate thing to say I guess. I need some inspiration. Joshua Davis and his work inspires me. I put together his work and words that were said during Adobe Max conference in Seoul last year.

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Monday, April 30, 2007

dancer in the dark

This is my favorite part of the film, Dancer In The Dark, I watched the other night. Although it was such a sad and depressing movie, there was something that made me like this movie. The music "I've seen it all" was sang by Bjork.

I've Seen It All
by Bjork

I've seen it all, I have seen the trees,
I've seen the willow leaves dancing in the breeze
I've seen a man killed by his best friend,
And lives that were over before they were spent.
I've seen what I was - I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!

You haven't seen elephants, kings or Peru!
I'm happy to say I had better to do
What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great, if the roof doesn't fall!

And the man you will marry?
The home you will share?
To be honest, I really don't care...

You've never been to Niagara Falls?
I have seen water, its water, that's all...
The Eiffel Tower, the Empire State?
My pulse was as high on my very first date!
Your grandson's hand as he plays with your hair?
To be honest, I really don't care...

I've seen it all, I've seen the dark
I've seen the brightness in one little spark.
I've seen what I chose and I've seen what I need,
And that is enough, to want more would be greed.
I've seen what I was and I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!

You've seen it all and all you have seen
You can always review on your own little screen
The light and the dark, the big and the small
Just keep in mind - you need no more at all
You've seen what you were and know what you'll be
You've seen it all - there is no more to see!

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Monday, February 05, 2007

begin the begin

my mind

The new year has started, the new month has started, and the new job has started. I should be excited... but having been sick for weeks doesn't help much.

I'm starting a new chapter. I'm not certain what to write... yet. There are so many things I want for my life. I will have to find a way to make that wanting to happen. It seems like a long way ahead of me... but I still believe in positive energy. I know I will be happy again.

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Friday, December 29, 2006

tuesday people

out focused

I picked up a book at a book store during lunch hour yesterday. I started reading it since last night and went through almost half of it already. ‘Tueadays with Morrie’ by Mitch Albom - it’s the book I started reading a couple years ago but never got to finish reading and it’s the book I sent to Sean when he was away. I think I also sent him ‘Me Talk Pretty One Day’ by David Sedaris.

When I had a lot of time in my hands early of this year in Vancouver, I spent a lot of time at bookstores… mainly Chapters on Robson & Hornby and Book Warehouse in Yaletown. I liked Warehouse in Yaletown better because they always had nice Jazz music on and that always helped me taking enough time and finding good books to read. I picked up ‘The Five People You Meet in Heaven’ by Mitch Albom there. I’d never heard of the book before but had a feeling that I would enjoy reading. I enjoyed reading it and it helped me crying. Life and death… especially death, how many people at my age would think so much about it unless they lost someone very close to them. Everyday, every hour, every minute, and every second for the past year, I was never free from the thoughts of life in connection to death.

People tell me time heals the wound. Did I ever believe what they say? Did I ever want to believe? Now I realize it’s love I had for Sean that makes my heart ache. It’s the love, it’s the memory, it’s the connection, and it’s the yearning. I don’t know what comforting words ‘Tueadays with Morrie’ would give me as I went through only half of it… but I know it already talks about something that I’ve been thinking about a lot for a long time… but never really got around to put them into words. It feels like I met a friend who shares similiar view point on life.

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