Tuesday, October 13, 2009

journey of light.

light

The air got colder in mornings and at nights. Weather comes and goes so does people.

Things are rather peaceful, yet, little things in life make my heart sing. I regained a positive energy with a little help from a friend and I am inspired. And! I will be in India in about a month of time. I will be on a journey of light that is bright and beautiful.

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Thursday, February 05, 2009

almost spring.

I stumbled upon this beautiful piece of video clip on Vimeo today. Creative energy has been low for the past a couple months, I don't seem to take as many photos as I used to, I don't seem to create as much as I used to.

The spring is almost here again. March used to be my favorite month of a year, death turns into life, cold turns into warmth, and darkness fades away into the light. It will be the forth spring since Sean has left us for the better place. Even the intolerable pain is turning into something bearable as time goes by. Life goes on, we seem to find the strength in us somehow. I'm still here and I'm still trying to be an optimist.

In this spring, I want to more focus on finding what I want for life, what to do to make it happen. After all, the most important thing is trying, trying the best I can, that way I will get to enjoy the journey and hopefully to find the beauty of life.

So the spring begins.


A Walk Around Seattle in the Snow from Luke Humphrey on Vimeo.

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Sunday, January 11, 2009

knocking on heaven's door.

the ocean.

The weekend has been pretty lazy and relaxing. I even had time to go through my DVD collection and found a movie I wanted to watch again. 11 years have passed since I watched the movie, Knocking on Heaven's Door, at a theater in 1997. It's still a great movie after all that year. The ocean, life & death, friendship, and living the best moments of life... and the music. Such Beautiful things always inspire me. I miss the ocean.

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Monday, December 08, 2008

faceless.

soul mate

I've been too busy lately living a mundane life. I don't want to live a faceless life. I should try harder.

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Monday, October 20, 2008

the challenge

the world forgetting, by the world forget.

About the time I arrived at Suncheon bay, the sun started sinking. I started panicking - I had to take a few decent shots of the bay before everything disappears into the dark. If not, I had to come back to the bay that would cost me 10 hours of trip. It's my second freelance photography job for a magazine.

At that point, I was 2.3 km away from the observatory where I could get some decent view for some decent shots. I guess I would have given up already if I didn't remember reading an article that you get to see the most beautiful sunset for about 30 minutes up to an hour after the sun goes down. I never really paid attention to that but had to trust it at that point.

I started hiking/ running on 45 degree steep hill for about 15 minutes and another 20 minutes that was rather flat. I was out of breath, my legs were shaking... but I had a purpose. The purpose that I had to make it to the observatory before everything disappears into the dark. That was my mission of the day. During that short time I was running up the hill, I somehow was relating that moment to life and started remembering all those moments that I wanted to give up on challenges I faced. I walked faster and I started running.

The sky was still bright enough to photograph the bay when I got to the observatory. I had to twig some camera settings as I forgot to bring a tripod... but I got some shots. I got the shots because I didn't give up and the sunset became the highlight of the day. It was the most beautiful sunset ever.

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

what's left behind

the prayers

One of my Flickr friends Billy G. is a great writer. He started posting his writings along with his photos on his Flickr photostream. Here's one of his stories I could relate to the most. It didn't take long for me to have teary eyes.

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what's left behind by billy gomez.

"what happens when people die? the boy asked his mother. she looked down at him and stared for a few moments... never ceasing to be amazed by the boy's inquiries.
"well honey, when people die, they sort of... they sort of leave things behind."
"like what?"
"like... everyone they knew and loved."
"and what else?"
she reached into her purse and pulled something from it to wipe the boy's nose and mouth.
"well... they also leave behind everything they did."
"everything they did?"
"yeah, some of these things are good, and some of them are bad. hopefully more good things are left behind when someone dies."
"what kind of things are good?"
"the good things would be things like the people they loved, their family and friends... and it could also be the things they left in their work."
"work?"
"yeah work... like say for example the person who died was a writer. a writer leaves behind everything he or she wrote."
"and the bad things?"
"the bad things could be things like... things... things like..."
her bottom lip was punctuating the words in a way she was unable to control... the boy stared up at her and waited patiently.
he reached for her hand and squeezed it. the bus shook and rattled... but the boy never let go.
"am i a good thing or a bad thing that dad left behind?" he asked her.
the woman closed her eyes and squeezed... everything she was holding back, came running down her face. the boy looked down at the hand he was holding. his eyes became more glossy.
she reached up and wiped hers, then reached down and did the same for him.
she took a deep breath and spoke.
"you are not a thing, my love... you are a gift. you were a gift to him, to me, and to everyone who lays eyes on you."
the boy thought about her words for a moment. the answer didn't seem good enough.
"do you think dad knew that?"
"of course he did."
his gloomy expression made way for a smile.
the mother reached down and wiped was left around his eyes. she squeezed his hands and looked towards the window.
the bus continued to shake and rattle. they had a ways to go.

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

no more.

rainy sunday

Today was grey sky, practicing patience, short hair, cobalt blue bangle, photos from Sweden, acrylic transfer painting, home made pizza, m-net coworkers, choco banana martini, broken view finder, rain, transparent umbrella, TaiK, plans, and no more, no more thoughts of you.

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Monday, September 22, 2008

empty room.

empty room

I wish I could empty my mind just like this empty room. All I need is lots of sunlight to see the beauty around me and a view that inspires me.

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Monday, September 08, 2008

little things

dww coffee

Here's my new favorite quote.

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Enjoy the little things,
for one day
you may look back and realize
they were the big things.

/Robert Brault

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

keep looking, don't settle.



My good friend & co-worker Daniel introduced me today to this amazingly inspirational speech given by Steve Jobs at the Stanford University commencement.

I was very inspired and had teary eyes while listening to the speech.

Steve talked about three stories - about connecting the dots, about love & loss, and about death. For those who doesn't have time to go through the entire speech of 15 mins, here's the key notes I took while listening to his speech.

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The first tory is about connecting the dots.

... Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever because believing in that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it lead you off the well worn path and that will make all the difference.

My second story is about love and loss.

... Sometimes, life is going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of you life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking and don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking, don't settle.

My third story is about death.

... No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

multiple.

four girls with one cat

I always have wanted to clone myself to be able to several different things at once.

It would be so nice if I can be on my Mac, drink tea, read a book, and play with Keefy all at the same time. Just like in this picture!

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Thursday, August 21, 2008

and i dream...

utata front page

One of my photos was featured on Utata front page sometime in June. I was so excited and it really made my day.

Today I got an email from one of my favorite photographers on Flickr, fiftyfootshadows, with a proposition of featuring me & my photography for the next Flickr Spotlight on his website. I'm totally stoked and can't wait to see which photos he's going to choose.

I've been down for the past a few days with the job that doesn't inspire me at all and I just started regaining the energy to dream again. John's email came in just about the right time and I'm very motivated now. I'm working on my TO DO list again and thinking about youngdoo.net vol.2, button design, photography books, etsy shop, blurb, post cards, acrylic paintings, visual poem etc.

Yes, I dream therefore I am.

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Monday, August 18, 2008

eleven years.

dream

Peter flew in for Two Week in Seoul and left a couple nights ago. It has been already eleven years since he and I met the first time in Tokyo. I was schooling and he was traveling for his documentary film making. It always amazes me how I get to meet people, get connected, and stay in touch in different ways...

The past two weeks had been wonderful having someone around who knows/ understands the path of my life for the past challenging years. The mug on the left in the picture is one of the gifts Peter brought from Zürich. I take it as him being supportive on my We Dream project.

It says Nothing happens unless there is first a dream.

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Thursday, July 31, 2008

inspiration

hydrangea

I stumbled upon this brilliant diptych by The 10 cent designer on Flickr the other day and wanted to share with you - whoever look for inspirations.

I think this is a great example of how to convey the inspirations around you to your work.

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Saturday, July 19, 2008

my childhood.

three sisters

This photo was taken in a village where I was born. I spent my childhood there running around everywhere in that small village till I became 8. My sisters and I spent our springs picking up some random spring herbs in the field, summers hanging out by the river, autumns picking up apples at my dad's orchard, and winters making snowmen at the school playground. I had such a wonderful childhood.

This photo makes me reminisce the good old days with my sisters in that small village. Both of my sisters now have their own kids and their kids are probably older than my sisters in this photo. I don't get to see my sisters often nowadays therefore I don't get to talk to them as much either.

As much as I appreciate the fact that I'm a city girl who have traveled the world, I sometimes miss the days when I was a little girl in a small village and spending my days with my sister in nature.

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Friday, June 27, 2008

we dream

we dream

It was Monika's last day at work today. She's been a great co-worker, an excellent supporter, and a wonderful friend for the past a few months. I'm sure that I'll miss her at work very much everyday however I'm so happy for her that she gets a chance to travel, explore, and experience more of the world.

Monika has been one of those very few friends who encourages me to pursue my dream and inspired me to be more creative. Thanks Monika, you will be missed very much.

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We dream therefore we are.

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

george.

george(s)

I don't even remember when it was last time I called in sick for real. Today, I woke up really sick and decided not to go to work.

I spent most of my day in bed and slept like a dead person. It helped. As I got a bit better by the evening, I took photos of Curious George figurines. It's certain that I tend to pay more attention to the smallest things when I have more time in my hands.

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Monday, June 23, 2008

my weekend.



I had a wonderful time at summer solstice/ vegan party yesterday. The people, the food, and the conversation, everything was perfect.

Today, I wanted to take sometime for myself. After lunch with parents for their 39-years wedding anniversary, I went for a hike alone. It was quiet in the mountain. I didn't even bring my ipod. I heard the wind, birds, and insects. I really enjoyed time for myself.

My weekend was 100%.

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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

sound of rain

rain again.

It's 2:09am and I really should go to sleep. However, I'm listening to the rain and enjoying the quiet night. The rainy season has came back.

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

zurich & vancouver

zurich, switzerland

My friend Peter who lives in Zürich sent me a link to this article of "Top 5 quality of living ranking for cities worldwide" today and here's the list from the article:

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Top 5 cities - Overall
1. Zurich, Switzerland (1st)
2. Vienna, Austria (tied for 2nd)
2. Geneva, Switzerland (tied for 2nd )
4. Vancouver, Canada (4th)
5. Auckland, New Zealand (5th)

European cities dominate the rankings of locations with the best quality of living, according to Mercer’s 2008 Quality of Living survey. Zurich retains its 2007 title as the highest ranked city, followed jointly by Vienna (2), Geneva (2), then Vancouver (4) and Auckland (5).

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The rankings are based on a point scoring index, which sees Zurich scoring 108, while Baghdad scores 13.5. Cities are ranked against New York as the base city which has an index score of 100.

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I've been to Zurich quite a few times and lived in Vancouver for a while and I liked both cities a lot. I guess the difference is between the lake and the ocean or the difference between Europe or North America. If I had to choose one out of the two cities? It would be a really tough question as I actually miss the both cities very much.

It's already June, I think it's time to plan on my next vacation... and the question is where to go.

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Thursday, May 15, 2008

waking up on the indian ocean



Work is going and it actually is going better than most of my previous projects. Though it doesn’t excite me. I was talking with my friend over Skype, telling her that I need some fun. Then I started describing the kind of fun I want such as painting-the-ocean kindda fun, button-making fun, and waking-up-on-the-Indian-Ocean fun etc.

Then I started Flickr-searching with “Indian Ocean”. I found this beautiful sunset photo of the Indian Ocean. I found quite a few actually but this is my favorite so far.

I know I like to day-dream and, in fact, I do it really well in a creative way. I know it’s only a day-dream for now but I really wanna be there someday, watch the sunset and wake up with the sunrise.

Okay, it’s time to get back to work.

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

the best mornings

running

Betsy and I went down to Busan for the long weekend. The original plan was for surfing lessons but we ended up chilln' by the ocean and do some local sightseeing. Unlike our expectation, the weather in Busan was pretty cold and windy so we got chickened out.

Although I didn't get to take the surfing lessons as I planned, the mornings there were the best. A long walk on the beach with morning sun, wave-watching, photo-snapping, and the fresh air, they brought me back to the days in Vancouver and the moments on English Bay. Ocean has come in different meanings since Sean left. Ocean has been my best friend who understands the pain, loneliness, and it always has been the best listener. It was so comforting to be back with such friend again.

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Friday, May 02, 2008

traveling light

traveling light

My wonderful friend Cortney found this beautiful yellow book at Seattle Airport on Christmas a couple years ago and bought me one. This beautiful yellow book is called Traveling Light, it provokes thoughts, conversation, and emotion, maybe even inner peace.

A little while ago, I remembered this beautiful yellow book as I was reading one of my friend's blog entries. I had to pick it up from my dusty bookshelf to read again.

The beatiful yellow book says, memories make the world home, and being a serious travel bug, I can relate to it so well. I'm starting to think about the destination of my next journey where I don't even know when my next vacation will be.

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

return to this world as a rose?

november rose.

I posted this picture and jared said "Return to this world as a rose? Ok."

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Friday, August 03, 2007

first day of my life



It's another Friday night. I'm giving myself some time to relax and doing things that I like to do. I came accross to this beautiful piece of music video. I guess we don't need to talk a lot to communicate or to inspire... and I guess that's one of the reason I love to walk around and take pictures.

This is the first day of my life. I probably have to look for something excites me again. I should live a life again.

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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

words are low resolution

words

Nate and I were talking on MSN the other day. Based on what he said during our conversation I came up with something simple that I might use for the t-biz I'm planning on running someday.

It basically is the idea that how hard it is to deliver complicated thoughts into words and how blurry the idea is when it's spoken.

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

rainy day

rainy day - window

The sky went dark and I started hearing heavy rain drops. For quite a while I enjoyed looking out the street through the glass window at work. Rainy days seem very photogenic to me although I tend to get lazy taking pictures when I have to carry an umbrella.

Rainy days always remind me of Vancouver, my second home. Rainy day always make me want to put some jazz on, drink some good coffee or wine. I miss my place in Vancouver.

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Friday, December 29, 2006

tuesday people

out focused

I picked up a book at a book store during lunch hour yesterday. I started reading it since last night and went through almost half of it already. ‘Tueadays with Morrie’ by Mitch Albom - it’s the book I started reading a couple years ago but never got to finish reading and it’s the book I sent to Sean when he was away. I think I also sent him ‘Me Talk Pretty One Day’ by David Sedaris.

When I had a lot of time in my hands early of this year in Vancouver, I spent a lot of time at bookstores… mainly Chapters on Robson & Hornby and Book Warehouse in Yaletown. I liked Warehouse in Yaletown better because they always had nice Jazz music on and that always helped me taking enough time and finding good books to read. I picked up ‘The Five People You Meet in Heaven’ by Mitch Albom there. I’d never heard of the book before but had a feeling that I would enjoy reading. I enjoyed reading it and it helped me crying. Life and death… especially death, how many people at my age would think so much about it unless they lost someone very close to them. Everyday, every hour, every minute, and every second for the past year, I was never free from the thoughts of life in connection to death.

People tell me time heals the wound. Did I ever believe what they say? Did I ever want to believe? Now I realize it’s love I had for Sean that makes my heart ache. It’s the love, it’s the memory, it’s the connection, and it’s the yearning. I don’t know what comforting words ‘Tueadays with Morrie’ would give me as I went through only half of it… but I know it already talks about something that I’ve been thinking about a lot for a long time… but never really got around to put them into words. It feels like I met a friend who shares similiar view point on life.

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